reality check

well, the picture above explains everything im gonna say, doesnt it?




i dont get what's the purpose of life. if we live for death. then why are humans fighting so hard for living?
pathetic.

another life lesson learned

yesterday was my worst day ever (of the year), i was mentally and emotionally broken down. i never expected that it would really happen. yesterday was seriously beyond my control and it was so hard for me to chill down. special thanks to some friends of mine who made my chin up :) so i just simply added yesterday into 'my life lessons' list, it's like: even if you chose the wrong choice, made the wrong decision, just go for it. complaining wont make your things better, it'll just make you days even harder, im sure of it. it's so humaninous for you to be sad and feel a bit regret - being beaten down by some things in life is necessary, but how you pass it through is the point. fight a little bit harder, and i will find out everything worth the tear and sweat i dropped, wont i?

well, i am gorgeous?

no. it's just according to this love astrology that im gorgeous. just a random chain-blog-post.
anyway check what's yours :)

JANUARY=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them MFE.

FEBRUARY=THUG 
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Resend this in 5 min. and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match. ♥

MARCH=GORGEOUS 
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy!!. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others . Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as  possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt!and quiet the charmer. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of the other 11 months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize at
you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

MAY=LOVER 
Hella sexy, loves sex n making luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins. someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

JUNE =FINEASS 
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 day

JULY=GANGSTA 
You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with a  JUNE brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

AUGUST=ATTITUDE 
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. Self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious.. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

SEPTEMBER=PIMP 
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will kiss the one that you been wanting…

OCTOBER=HOTTIE 
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

NOVEMBER=SWEETIE ♥
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck.. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days. 

DECEMBER=BEAUTY 
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Loves freedom. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

countdown: 2years

hello bloggie, sorry for my absence :)

ive been very lazy since i entered the second grade of SHS. plus, ive taken a big risk :) i chose science class instead of social class. personally, i would like to choose social class for sure, but i made a deal with mom, so yeah, i just need to follow my mom's instruction, suffering for 2years, for the sake of *something* yay
the first 3days of school, i was given a chance to bully some juniors cause they're on their MOS. the first day, i acted like a monster, shouting here and there, it's fun you know. really really fun. it's like the most suitable time for you to bully some innocent people without worrying to be blamed. but the second and third day, i lost all of my mood to bully them, so i just laughed behind, being a good senior :)
anw, i feel the same like winny. sth's missing, i dont really like my new class. idk why and what is exactly missing, it's just not the same anymore, hm. God please gimme extra strength.

nam nam

just smile and walk away :)

take a step back. fucking look at yourself. you are human. you are beautiful. you are so beautiful. and you can be anything. you can be everything. do not hate because someone broke your heart, or because your parent split up, you best friends betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. cry when you need to, then let it go when it's time. don't hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget. let go things that are in the past. forget things that aren't worth remembering. stop taking things for granted. stop taking life for granted. live for something, live for yourself. fall in love. fall out of love. fall in love. fall out of love. do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. question things. tell people how you really feel. sleep under the stars. create. imagine. inspire. share something wonderful. make something beautiful and then destroy it. meet new people. make someone's day. follow your dreams. live your life to its full potential. just live. dammit. let go all the horrible things in your life and just fucking live. and one day, when you're old, look back with no regrets.

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counting down days♥

well, the teachers had given us back our paper just now, actually im not really satisfied with every score i get. so i made a note-to-self to cheer me up. it works!
note to self : you did your best Christine, i know how hard you've learned, every sacrifaction you made. and you know what, you did most of the paper by yourself, you've learned to be honest with yourself. at this point, you're amazing. even your scores arent good enough, im proud of you, well done Christine. thank you for your hard work, 

♥

kay back to daily life. i was so surprised this morning, everyone on my twitter timeline made their #junewishes. i thought it's still may. idk is it time flies too fast or it is just me. anyway im still on my final semester exam, it hasnt finished yet, but im so relaxed alr. my soul my mind my sleeping pattern my pimples my everything are seriously going crazy. i need rest. no doubt, i didnt sleep well since the last two weeks. i slept approximately 3hrs a day just for reviewing the exam material. maybe im a little bit dumb but i dont feel regret for doing this, yay!

tadaaa! lemme introduce my new friends! daddy bought me them weeks ago.

 i fell in love with lomo at my first sight, will definitely capture tons of pictures
as soon as exams ended.

thank you daddy and amin, * blowing kisses *

tears in heaven

disappointed. depressed. totally full of regrets. am feeling like dead people.
things you've been struggling with all of your life, within a blink of an eye, vanished?
dont you think its absurd? hm.

im so into this song these few days. the lyric, the music just suit my mood. below is played by a so-talented little boy named sungha jung. enjoy! :)

 i must be strong and carry on, cause i know i don't belong

here in heaven

a wonderful mom of mine ♥

to a wonderful mom of mine :)

thank you mom for these years ;

thank you for your warm and true love,

thank you for the sweet things you've done for us,

thank you for your patience and strength,

thank you for waking me up everytime i went out of track,

thank you for your wonderful ways that made me feel special today,

thank you for - everything :)

my wish for you, may all the nicest things will keep coming to you!

glad that youre my mom and not other's. i love you mom. :) - always

specially made from us to our super mom ;)

well, it has been really yearss since the last time i did this kind of thing, what do you think?

hope that you'll like it, mom :)

made with love,

yours  ♥

the royal love story

Kate Middleton is getting her fairytale-ending. i do envy her, well, a little bit :b
Kate is like a Cinderella for me. a gorgoeous yet kind hearted commoner, marrying a prince, being a princess, riding a horse drawn wedding carriage, living in a castle. perfect. i thought Cinderella is only a stupid disney's princess and she doesnt really exist, but i know i was wrong now, she does exist :)

Happy Wedding The Duke & Duchees of Cambridge, 

William Arthur Philip Louis and Catherine Elizabeth "Kate" Middleton ♡

and mine? mine stinks. im super seriousssssssssly giving up now. im exactly at the point where im too tired of struggling, struggling for sth pointless. i'll just go with the flow from now on. i mean it. relax, lay back and see what's gonna happen. that'd be much easier for me :) good luck for you.

 

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tell me what you want, now.

second attempt

location : Sherrilyn's

made the second experiment abt recycling the newspaper, this time ended up quite smoothly. we just knew tt we need to mix some tepung maizena with the bubur kertas, so that the paper wont be torn easily later, gah.

anyway, we messed sher's home up, not only the backyard, but the kitchen too! both of them were critically damaged, her maids must be hating us, hahaha.

 

i do have a great time. everything's great when my besties are by my side,

but then, sth suddenly passed through my mind, it ruins, ergh, my whole mood, idk what am i thinking, and what do i want now. total crap. yah i know i am.

April 17, gah i wont forget u.

stfu. i hate 17th April hell damn much.

daur ulang kertas?

hello,
am enjoying my school-break, finally school gives me a break frm my tiring daily routines, yeaaaaaaaaaaay i feel alive again!
i spent my first day of hols with my besties, we planned to make a kertas daur ulang. it seemed zuper easy and coepoe when u look at the instruction, but when u try to make it, oh goshhh, why so ribet? we cut and cooked the bubur kertas until we're all sweating and still it failed? am deeply disappointed :< but im not giving up, must make another experiment and yet it must be succeeded, hwaiting!

at last, playing around with sheryl's photobooth!

dinner with love

heya there,
just had a dinner with my family, including my best grandma; the one who used to take care of me when i was a kid, anyway sorry for being super annoying and irritating and bad tempered grand daughter, hahaha. well, she confessed tt im the naughtiest grandchild of hers, sorry, but u did well grandma, thankyou for the love and care for years, i love you! smooch!

some pola photos taken :

completely complete ;)

min-ti-dad vs. mom-me :p

brotherhood! LOL.

 

full of love,

Christine

my 16th birthday!

hello bloggers, im officially sixteen now! i have a lot of people to thank, knowing that u guys still remembering my birthday, that's more than enough actually.

thankyou for mom and dad for the gifts, i swear i will take care of it & wont make it lost this time. loves!
thankyou for my uncountable friends for staying up till midnight just too wish me a happy birthday. so sorry i fell asleep alr. <3
thankyou for my sweet buddies & old mates & unknown fb friends for the birthday wishes. all the very best for u guys too ;)
thankyou for Cipito, never thought you'd give me a gift, thank you and sorry ive irritated u for times ;)
thankyou for my best mates, Felixe and Stella Tiffany for the kue soes. u guys know me the best, bras and hopeng forever, salam koe soes <33 *bearhugs*
last, thankyou for my girl, Sherrilyn, Dave the cow, cik Erin and friends; thankyou for the birthday surprise, u guys act so well till idk that u guys play on me! uggh. i regret for being too stupid but still, tysm <33

some photos to share :

16pcs of kue soes frm my loves :)

baked by my another love, Sheryl, and Dave :)

here they are ;)

i love you all *blow kisses*

life oh life

hello bloggers,
life has been treating me so bad these days, life is much more simple when i was a kid, hell yes i miss that time, it was when i know nothing, when having snacks and playing games are everything i need to do; when i thought life is just as simple as in disney's movie. wish i could turn back time and stop there, i dont wanna grow any older, since as you grow older, pressures and problems come along. oh god im sick of those. i know i shdn't type this complainment, but this is what i am feeling now, though i know im still counted as one of those lucky ones :( so many questions pop out in my head, am i fated to pretend like im really fine and okay even though im not? putting a big fake smile on my face? i wonder if one day later, when i suddenly really get lost in the middle of nowhere. does anyone care?
im so sorry Buddha for being ungrateful, x

stupid dealing with a "b"

uggh,
ive made a stupid deal with an old man. "post some pics in yunnan / my omg candid photos at school?"
for god's sake, of course i'll choose the first one, though both of them are the same omg actually, huuu :(
ah! i hope i didnt make the wrong choice.
take a deep breathhhhh and kay you may start laughing now :)

ok i knw this one looks like a blind one :(

me daddeh and titiii!

this one reminds me of you! lol

mom me and ti !

tired of walking.

my loves.

stealing dad's :p

my men - captured by me! :p

he he heee

NYE :)

poni terbelah?

girlssss

woohooo.

this one lol

Add caption

hahaha!

shut up,

Christine

im here again :)

hello peeps,
so sorry i have been absent for sooooooo long.
and, yes! ive renovated the layout of my blog again.
spent my whole sunday afternoon staring at the monitor and here's the result.
* TADAAAA!
so, how do you think? :)

 x,

Christine

imma back!

hello bloggers,

im now back from my trip. i went to Yunnan - a province in the southwest of China,
anyone knows what place is that? :)  i bet no!
cause it's not a metropolitan city with tall buildings everywhere - it's an old town which is surrounded by mountains.
the temperature was super cooooooold there, especially when the sun has set, omglikeshit, i felt like freezing. i wore for about 5clothes there. and i'm still trembling. great.

im gonna post some great places that ive visitted in Yunnan tmr kayyy. wait for them! *cancelled*

happy late new year anw, may 2011 be a nice year for all of us, cheers!

Christine x